December 27, 2017
I’m Caramel and I live in North Central Florida. I recently visited Orlando to meet a model/producer/dancer named Lycha and some mutual trans friends that had only communicated online together until then. The interactions went extremely well and Lycha and I discussed how we’d develop the interview I’d requested. She suggested that we do some video right then and there to enhance the text part of our Q&A. It made me a bit nervous because I felt so unprepared. But my friend Kimberly who is a great photographer was there and we all had our cameras and enough combined pro lighting to make this work. The end result is this text interview and a two part video interview on youtube.com/c/TSDreamland. I hope you’ll enjoy them all.
Caramel: You’ve done some major studio work for Femout.XXX (reminder to insert photo links to my reviews) as well as independent work for ManyVids, Clips4Sale and you also webcam on Streamate. Do you prefer doing live shows or filming?
Lycha: I like the freedom that I’ve gotten with filming my own content. I get to create whatever I think might be fun or sexy. However, I really like the live feedback I get when camming. It’s useful to find out what people are enjoying, in real-time; in contrast to that, when filming, you can sometimes feel like you’re trying to paint a picture in a darkened room. I haven’t had much time to cam lately, though, but I feel like I’m enjoying filming more right now anyway.
Caramel: How did it all come about you interviewing for Grooby Productions?
Lycha: I had initially reached out to them before, earlier in my transition, but they hadn’t been interested. After some time, I was filming some trade/share content with a regular model of theirs, and a photographer’s assistant saw me and thought I might be a good fit. After some chatting with him, the photographer wrote to Grooby, and I got approved to do a set on Femout.XXX!
Caramel: That’s where I first saw you and I raved about those shoots (caramelstgirls.com/tag/lycha). Was making the decision to get into the adult entertainment industry a tough one?
Lycha: Not really. I did it right after I started transitioning, and I had detached myself from a lot of people who knew me in my pre-transition life. I wasn’t really caring much about what they might think. I just knew that I liked performing (I have a background in musical theater) and loved being sexy for people. The idea of monetizing that, to help pay bills, sounded good.
Caramel: Describe how you felt on your very first porn assignment.
Lycha: Nervous as fuck! My first paid gig was with Ginary’s Kinky Adventures www.clips4sale.com/studio/45669/ginary-s-kinky-adventures. I felt excited but scared. It went okay, but my performance could have been better. I had never done any real film-oriented work in my vanilla theater background, though past theater performances have been taped (and broadcast on TV in Brazil, at one point). I was going through a lot at the time I filmed with Ginary’s studio, and I know that I could have done better. Afterwards I felt elated, but also unsure as to how well the videos came out.
Caramel: When did you first view porn?
Lycha: When I was 12, in Brazil. An adult friend gave me some image files of facial cumshots; there were no visible genitals, just girls with jizz on their faces.
Caramel: I had to pause for quite awhile to process that. But moving on, how do you think the trans porn genre is going overall right now?
Lycha: Well, I think it’s beginning to mature. Not only are mainstream sites removing slurs, but some major stars have also started doing a bigger variety of content. For non-trans porn, you can literally find every type of fetish under the sun, but it hasn’t been until very recently that key players in trans porn have been getting into different varieties of fetish. I think that’s an important move, because it opens up more sexual freedom for the performers and the customer base.
Caramel: Do you now classify a lot of the people in the industry you only saw on the Internet before as your friends now?
Lycha: A good number of them have become online friends, which is crazy weird! As far as trans models, I was never much into trans porn before I transitioned, because it made me feel weird (it reminded me of things about myself I was struggling to suppress). At this point, though, it’s been very cool to meet people in the industry. I’ve also met tons of non-trans performers, some of which have become wonderful friends. I didn’t really follow very many adult film stars, though, before getting into the industry, outside of a handful of fetish performers who mostly do wet/messy/taboo.
Caramel: Are there any unreleased porn projects you’re working on that you can tell us about now?
Lycha: Yes. I have some fetish clips that I filmed with some central Florida models that I still haven’t released. There’s at least four or five videos I’m waiting to release on clips4sale right now. I also will be posting some hardcore I did with Kai Bailey @kaibaileyxxx and Kiersten Bunnz @TSKierstenBunnz soon.
Caramel: Great people! I’ve met and interviewed Kiersten with a mutual actress friend Morena Black @tsMorenaBlack and I just missed meeting Kai by a couple of weeks when he visited Orlando. Is there anyone on your adult industry bucket list you can tell us about?
Lycha: Literally almost everyone, but nobody in particular. Something I care about is seeing people as more than just sex objects. I don’t always do that perfectly, but I try to; it’s a personal value of mine. If I think I might have a chance to work with a performer, I actually avoid ogling their content online. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with unbridled lust, but I prefer to see other models as friends.
Caramel: You also do radio shows and the first time I listened was when you were on live with Kami @Amatsu_Kami_XXX, another great Florida-based model and mutual friend. It was more of a discussion than an interview but you do both. What is your process for doing a good radio interview?
Lycha: I like to come up with 10-12 good questions. Each question should offer the opportunity for discussion. I try to anticipate the need to fill time if necessary, but if I hit it off well with someone, personality-wise, I like to provide opportunities for fun and creative segues. I also run the questions by the person ahead of time. I hate shock radio, and I don’t enjoy catching people off guard. It feels wrong to act confrontational with someone in public view.
Caramel: I was totally entertained and impressed. What keeps you motivated to keep working hard and to keep pushing your goals?
Lycha: I owe partly that to A.A., actually. I got sober (for the last time, Goddess willing) in January of 2015. Working the program outlined in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous has taught me that I have to persevere on my goals. It’s too easy for me to give up on what’s important to me; if I stop working on my sobriety, then I will definitely end up drunk again. I have found that when I apply a similar mentality to other things in my life, it helps me continue working toward my goals. Something else I’ve learned in A.A. is letting go. So frequently in my sobriety I have to simply trust that if I continue to do my part, things will work out. When I find myself getting frustrated with not making much progress on my goals, I try to practice the idea of letting go, as well. I also realize that being content with doing good work is more important than self-aggrandizement, so I try to incorporate that into my modeling; this helps provide some balance.
Caramel: Congratulations. I’m three years sober and it’s so important to have a friend who understands. Do you look back on mistakes you’ve made, or just move on a think I’m gonna learn from this?
Lycha: It’s absolutely important to learn from mistakes; I’ve made plenty of them in my life, and I know I’ll continue to make more. I try to focus on how I can change to be a better person after I’ve erred; being a better person, though, can also include respecting myself and my path. I can dwell on mistakes pretty easily, but I aim to do that less. A.A. has also taught me that that is a form of unproductive self-indulgence. After I have learned all I can learn at a given time by re-thinking my actions, it only serves to misdirect me if I continue to think negatively. It is better to admit wrongdoing, learn what I can, and then move on; when I can achieve that, I am able to be more positive and helpful to those around me.
Caramel: How would you describe yourself growing up?
Lycha: I was mostly well-behaved. I was sometimes suspiciously mature (I got my first paid acting gig at age six, and was told that I was way easier to work with than children normally are), but other times I just enjoyed being annoying and inappropriate. I was also a sexual kid. I am pretty darn sure I wasn’t abused or anything as a child; my amazingly-dedicated parents were extremely protective of me and rarely let me out of their sight, so I think my early sexuality was just an aberration. The fact that I felt like a weird pervert was one of the things that deterred me from believing that I might be trans until fairly late in my life (mid-20s).
Caramel: How was growing up for you in terms of general lifestyle?
Lycha: Most of what I did with my time was music, math, and science. My parents were pretty selective about what friends I could have, and I was never allowed to freely roam the neighborhood. I did plenty of music lessons once it became apparent that I was musically inclined. I used to really like reading general-audience science literature when I was little, and then some of my dad’s textbooks from undergrad and graduate school when I was a teenager. I traveled to Philadelphia and Manhattan for show business stuff sometimes, which was pretty neat.
Caramel: Were you popular at school and what sort of crowd did you hang around with?
Lycha: I was well-known but not popular in elementary school. I got picked on so much for doing theatre, even at younger ages; by middle school, I would get called every gay slur imaginable. What was confusing about that was the fact that, although I knew I was “different from the boys,” I knew I liked girls. I thought I was just some sort of really strange creature, and the taunting only served to reinforce that. By middle school, I was also getting into my first fetishes, which only made me feel like a freak. Middle school was awful. High school had some nice times in it, because I got into punk rock, which people thought made me cool. I’m not sure how cool it really made me, but oh well!
Caramel: Punk rockers almost always get instant cool points from me. How did your family and friends take your decision to transition?
Lycha: So many people were confused. They had watched me date girls, and they didn’t expect me to transition. Everybody knew I was different, somehow, but they just wished more males were like me. They didn’t understand that gender identity is separate from sexual orientation, but to be fair, I didn’t understand that very well until my early 20s either. My family tried to dissuade me from transitioning for years, and a woman I was dating felt very traumatized by my desire to transition. Eventually, after everything in my life went south due to drinking and drug abuse, I detached myself enough from most people who cared about me. This made it easier for me to transition, and I started right after I got sober and got a job again. Some extended family, some friends, and a couple previous romantic partners (including one I was involved with for close to a decade) don’t really speak to me anymore; for the most part, that’s on them, not me.
Caramel: The world can be a very judgmental place and it seems that people try and push their own opinions and beliefs on people without even knowing they’re doing it. Some don’t even care about the repercussions. You mentioned the gay slurs you were called up through middles school. Have you ever been bullied in other ways?
Lycha: Almost everyone ever has tried to sell me on their line of thinking, throughout my whole life. This has resulted in me finding ways of getting along with most anyone who isn’t threatening outright physical violence. It’s amazing how much I can get someone to like me better by changing the topic to something they’ll agree with me on. I’ve not often been physically bullied by peers; it’s been mostly verbal. I’ve learned to deal with verbal attacks fairly well, but it doesn’t stop them from hurting.
Caramel: Name three earth moving events this year and tell us how they have affected you.
Lycha: I’m going to avoid anti-trans and anti-queer crap coming from the White House, its inherent wrongness, and my associated anger. Instead, let me offer my reactions to other things. The observation of the propagation rate of gravitational waves this year (www.sciencealert.com/ligo-gravitational-waves-neutron-stars-space-physics-news-october-2017 ) was super exciting, because the question of exactly how gravitational fields propagate has been a huge, perplexing problem in modern physics. Electromagnetic field propagation has been well understood for some time, and the strong and weak nuclear forces have been well-evidenced in data from multiple types of observations, especially thanks to particle colliders; the other fundamental force was proved to propagate by waves in 2016, but it’s only been in 2017 that more properties of this have been discovered.
The coming forward of so many individuals with #metoo and claims of sexually inappropriate behavior in politics and Hollywood came as no surprise to me, but I am really glad to see that victims are finally starting to have the opportunity to share their story and be believed.
It’s also good to know that powerful people are starting to have to face the music for sexual misconduct; they are not exempt from the consequences of their actions.
The Las Vegas shooting was terrible to hear. The idea of being gunned down en masse is absolutely frightening, and the idea of shootings at entertainment events is scary for someone like me who has worked on and off in entertainment for a long time. I can’t even begin to imagine the horror it was for anyone who was there.
Caramel: 2017 has been one fascinating year jam packed with controversy. On a lighter note, most people can hear a song and it will instantly take them back to a time or memories from years before. What song takes you back to good times?
Lycha: So, so many of them! I grew up on 90s alternative and 60s/70s classic rock. Those take me back… but so does 80s and 90s punk, because I got into that in high school (I’m 33 now, lol).
Caramel: What music really connected with you growing up? What sort of music do you listen to mostly these days?
Lycha: I really liked music with an uptempo beat, music with energy and passion. That’s probably why I connected so well with punk rock when I discovered it. I still listen to too much punk rock. I listen to an awful lot of other things, though, too; I also like playing all of the types of music I enjoy hearing. I’ve enjoyed playing guitar and bass in punk/metal bands as a teen and young adult, bass and drums in jam bands in my 20s, drums in a theater orchestra pit in my 20s, and bass in a jazz/swing band in high school. I did vocal/choir groups when I was a kid. I sang a lot of showtunes when I did musical theater as kid. I’ve enjoyed participating in drum circles in my late 20s. Sometimes I enjoy playing classical music on the piano or french horn, though I’m not terribly good at either of those. I have recently started listening to a number of new bands (for me), like moe., Drive-By Truckers, the Grateful Dead, and the Disco Biscuits.
Caramel: If you had to pick three people from any time in history alive or dead to have dinner with, who would they be?
Lycha: One would be Nikola Tesla. He was an electrical engineering genius with some peculiar eating habits, I’ve read. Any of the trans women of color who were at the Stonewall Riot would be good dinner company, too. I’d also enjoy dining with Isaac Asimov; he’s one of the writers whose numerous works I have really enjoyed. Before the Lord of the Rings movies came out, I would have liked to dine with J.R.R. Tolkien as well, but now it’s trendy to like his work; my interest would have been mostly in discussing the motivations behind the synthetic languages showcased in his books.
Caramel: Will you be attending the TEAs (Transgender Erotica Awards) this year?
Lycha: No, my day job needs me. Maybe next year?
Caramel: What can your fans look forward to in the near future?
Lycha: More of everything. I like exploring sexuality in so many ways, and the more I can capture on film, the better. Also, I bought three domain names after FetishCon 2017 that I wanted to create a membership-based site with; however, after I got a new day job that’s kept me busier, I haven’t had the time. I’d still like to create a membership-based site, at some point. We’ll see!
If you haven’t yet seen out the video interviews, they’re on youtube.com/c/TSDreamland.
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